April 2010
March 2010
Not Good, No Good, Not At All.
Downhill
Uphill
Around and around
Not good, no good, not at all.
My Routine
for the past week as well as today has succeeded in making me minorly depressed. I missed school for pretty much a week and next week is spring break and i have so much to catch up on. at this point i refuse to fail and it sucks that my emotions have increasingly taken the best of me. fuck hormones! anyways… i was out because i”ve been so nauseous and i’ve been experiencing the...
“Sometimes, running away means you’re headed in the exact right direction.”
– Alice Hoffman (via iamblessed) (via quote-book)
hmmmmmm..
I'm ill.
trying to use most of my energy so i don’t just feel useless.
this is the worst period i’ve ever had, and now i’m sick.
my emotions have never been so erratic before, i think. it’s really terrible.
i don’t feel like eating.
i don’t really feel like talking.
i’m pale.
constant headaches, stomach aches, fever, the works.
i’m behind again, as...
I have to!
i have to get back into shape. i have to. i have to get that summer body. i have to. i want it, so bad. i tried working out today and now my back is all fucked up, i’m sad. but i don’t care right now i guess. i have to get itttt!
vegas in two weeks, i’m sooooo anxious for it.
my weekends always seem to stop when i get home on saturday nights. my sundays are spent lounging about...
i lost my wallet for the first time.
jesmondb:
Karma i guess.
D: WOW, i hope you find it!
“Sex is not something you do to someone. Sex is not a one way transitive verb,...”
– How Men Have Sex, Stoltenberg (via quote-book)
Somedays, I let my insecurities get the best of me. Somedays, I can’t let go of a little thing because it hurts, and I let it hurt. Somedays, I’ll keep my guard up, because I still get scared. All these things I hate doing because I know I’m supposed to stronger than that, better that. And that’s why you love me. But somedays, I need to be reassured, I need comfort. Somedays, I just need your love...
Lose Control -SILK
song that was stuck in my head...
Food Baby
i have got one, and i cannot wait for it to just… dissipate somehow. haha if it could do that without effort.
so i just checked weather.com! i know it sounds kind of dumb haha, but i keep getting juked so i gotta make sure i’m prepared! the weather for this week is lookin great so far, i just can’t wait to experience it. :) ahh..
okay, well i gotta finish my ‘online...
2:46pm
the time is fucking me over hahaha -_- i got so confused.
Freaks
i’m blaming jt because this song is now in my head. hahaha
i have to say that yesterday went by pretty well! let’s recap:
went with jt to take his mom shopping in pv and manhattan beach
yamba yoose, islands, nomnomnom
met up with rebekah at del amo to work things out
berry good result, to say the least hah. don’t feel like going into whatever because i don’t need to!
...
call me selfish...
kyleyomama:
rheenabettes:
but when it comes to my boyfriend, he is MINE. I do not share :)
<3
Quod me nutrit, me destruit.
MUST grow up pronto. it’s imperative that i accomplish some sort of development very soon.
some things can’t be rushed, some things can’t be helped, some things definitely need to be nurtured carefully. but i’ll admit that i’ve been living recklessly and so i have to do what needs to be done.
“Life appears to me too short to be spent in nursing animosity or registering...”
– Charlotte Brontë (via anditslove)
piece of shit. dumb. stupid. good for...
no matter what, you just have to keep your head held high i guess.
OKAY LAST ONE... HAPPY BIRTHDAY CJ!
miss you bestfriend :P oh my GOSH, you are 18. i can still remember back to freshman year when everyone was starting to meet each other and all of our crazy antics began to be unleashed. all of that and our random inside jokes about powerthirst and barry gibb and south park in between. ahhhhhh hahaha. well, i hope you enjoyed your birthday and i hope that you see this birthday message <3
OH and...
i can’t believe my computer is down. alksdjfalkjsadsff must salvage my pictures before it’s too late because those are the only things i really care about on there.
A Walk Through Hell
By Say Anything
today when i woke up this song popped into my head and i kept hearing it so i guess this will be my song of the day.
i didn’t go to school today, i’m pretty bummed about it, but hey no regrets. i’m tired of feeling so exhausted. (ahaha, see what i did there? anyways…)
recapping the weekend as usual, i suppose:
SAT got picked up in the morning by jt and...
